Monday, October 13, 2008

CATALYST Diary - Part I

The first thing I went to at Catalyst was this pre-conference/lab think that was put on by Community Christian Church (from Naperville, IL). They are one of the leading churches in this country for church planting. A few of us from HCC went to a conference of theirs this past January and it was awesome. It was actually an e-mail from them that told me about Catalyst in the first place! I honestly wasn’t expecting a whole lot out of this seminar because I’m not particularly looking to plant a church (at least not right now J). But I really liked the people putting it on and…I mean, free breakfast. J

One of the things that I have been praying and seeking the Lord in is that He would give me a dream. There are so many things that I am passionate about. There are so many things that get my blood pumping. But I so desire that God would give me a DREAM… a specific vision for something for His Kingdom. So I got to this session early and sat down at one of the tables to find a journal sitting in front of me. I open it and inside the front cover it says, “I’m praying that you will discover the dream God has for your life” and it was signed by Dave Ferguson (lead pastor at Community Christian). Crazy…I knew that I was supposed to be there. The session that morning just happened to be called “Discover the Dream”…awesome.

I was expecting people to get up there and basically talk to us the whole time…but the morning started off with worship and journaling…which just happen to be two of my favorite things in the world. They put 3 journal questions up on a screen and gave us time to write/pray/reflect. I would encourage anyone who reads this post to go get their journal, or a piece of paper, or a napkin…anything works. But I would encourage you to spend some time wrestling with these questions. When you were born, you were born with a dream. You were given specific gifts and talents for the purpose of furthering God’s Kingdom. It’s time for the CHURCH to wake up and start dreaming…living “wide awake” as Erwin McManus says. So here’s the 3 journal questions…

  1. If I could do anything for God, I would…
  2. The barriers that are keeping me from doing this thing are…
  3. A specific people group, culture, or country that God has given me a heart for is…

I’ll spare you everything I wrote that morning, but one major discovery was that the barriers that are keeping me from reaching the dreams God has put in my heart all go back to FEAR and they all go back to ME. And when I say “fear”, I mainly mean a fear of the future. A fear of a loss of security. A fear that other desires of my heart may go unfulfilled if I pursue these dreams. A fear of the unknown. There’s part of me that SO DESIRES to go against the “normal patterns” of this world, the cookie-cutter American life, but I also think there’s a deep-seated fear of it as well. And what I noticed was that all of these fears point back to a concern for ME and a lack of trust in HIM. So I’m praying that God will break me of those things. They are straight from the evil one.

So what about you?? I would seriously encourage you to spend some time thinking and writing on those 3 questions. God may just wake you up to a few things!

“I’m praying that you will discover the dream God has for your life”!!

1 comment:

Scott, Tasha and Emery said...

Fear is a huse issue that I deal with to. But one day i came to the realization that without fear, there can be no growth. If we are comfortable, then we will never have a desire to grow. We must constently step outside of our comfort zone to reach the desired change in our lives. So I have come to embrace fear, even though I do not desire it. Thanks for the post!! ~Scott